my family is falling apart

without you.


i miss you more and more each day. i think everyone does.

mom misses having someone to tell her it is going to be ok, to fix everything that goes wrong and to complain to about us

adam is just pissy, i think because he is now the man of the family he has this added responsibility and Can longer me just a kid.

i miss having you to engulf me in your arms, to tell adam to stop being mean. i miss your cooking i miss watching csi with you i miss the way you always knew when something was wrong.

my support system is gone. no one asks if im ok, no one is there when i just want to cry. my mom is mad at me for some reason, adam is mad at me for complaining to him, thats what a brother is for.
the whole time all i want is my family to be there for me, instead i am distancing myself from them or vice versa.

what am i supposed to do now.







dear "sister"

why wont you let me talk to you.
why do you not care.
what would i say to you if i had the chance.
do i want to find you.
how could you leave
and stay gone.